Spent searching for a fingerprint, a scent, a breath once might exist in my previous life!!!

How could someone feel someone they have ever met yet but really feel that person really exist somewhere? I feel like I’m seeking for something I’m not quite really sure I have faith with but in the same time I also confident that it’s waiting for me. How could this be possible? And there will be no proof until I finally find it. It make me stop recent relation to make myself free for someone I wait. Is it that simple? I don’t know. Don’t even have a clue. I might feel confuse with myself or getting bore with love but why I feel so strong for the kind of waiting. The feeling that told me to wait, the happy, delight moment comes to me with no reason. Just happy for my life and not feel lonely even if I am alone. It is like I am in love with someone but apparently I have got no one. Is this feeling real? Or I just spent time for movie or obsess for love at first sight or the soul mate or the other part of me that haven’t reunion yet? Maybe that the kind of unconscious mind that make story inside my head. I such an imaginary girl!!! Who seeking the love that only exist in those novels.

Who love South of nowhere hands up!!!

This show make me crazy after watching for 2 weeks or more: story about to gay couple Spencer and Ashley. Spencer(sweet, friendly girl) and family move from Ohio to LA, the rush city with crime, drug and many thing to distract. She met Ashley, smoking hot girl in school lol, rich, daughter of rock singer and gay. Spencer spent lot of time with Ashley talk about everything that make her mother very concern about her more when she know Ashley is gay. In contrast, knowing Ashley made Spencer discover her real sexuality. I like the ep 5 of the first season, before they become more intimate Ashley made an art film talk about people first time having sex, at first Spencer refuse to make it on record but finally she made the sweetest talk. Like her first time is not what she expect as they both virgin and if it’s not fun why everyone are obsess about it and she realize that her first time is almost end when it began and she cried and don’t know why because she sad or regret but she cried. She wish that she can have her new first time to give for someone she do really love and the shot went back to Ashley which saw the video with shyly smile for what Spencer said.


Do you think that this show can influence for straight people to be gay because after 3 season the show was cut off while it seems to be tons of fans crazy about the show like me(I’ve watch it 3 years later after the show cut off). For me the show is the show. What it can influence me is to use some of the good advice or memorable quotes but come on you are what you are and nothing can change (I watch more for straight couple movies and series but it’s doesn’t change the way I am at all). I really hope that the show would be back(even though the story is already completely end(in webisode actually) but I think the plot of Spencer and Ashley life in University would be perfect for the new season of South of Nowhere)Unless the reason of cutting this off are others.

FABULOUS LESBIAN BOOKS AND MOVIE

After got accident, I quite have plenty time to enjoy myself; reading books, listening music, writing, watching (lesbian)movies. I expect there will be more good lesbian movies more that not just picture only sex but in the kind of touchable, appreciable love that have no boundaries. So I come up with the one of the wonderful movies i've watch recently Imagine me&you this story make me believe that love at first sight is exist. Some may vice versa.

For the books I haven't got any lesbian book yet but I'm kind of buy one soon before that take a look with a good review for 10 great classic lesbian books but actually it's really hard to list as there are so many fabulous lesbian books we should read.

Want having NEW EYES??????

"The voyage of discovery lies not in finding new landscapes, but in having new eyes.”
..Marcel Proust..

I try to make friends from skype Lately but maybe the psycho are so much that make lots of people I add seems strange with someone that sent msg to say something like “Just want to make friends” even they accepted me but they still don’t talk to me(especially women, for men talk to me like I’m their darling—crap) How could one want just friendship(no mean for love or anything else), which is in the real world is hardly to find someone to share some thought. And make me clear while I want to make friend via the internet that mean that I don’t expose myself to someone that I am not quite acquaint yet but believe me i'm not trying to do something bad with unrevealed my appearance. Many times those want the video call to see how I look like for the first time? Yes, I’m quite shy and you know the FIRST TIME!!! Why? Friendship doesn’t care for your appearance, right? If me wrong may be you can suggest me some…… who know I am quite open in this cubic cyber world. Hope everyone try to have new eyes for your new discovery a lovely girl like me!!!!!

暗恋就是 50% 失恋了！！！

爱上一个人但是没有跟她告白， 安静的看着她跟朋友说话， 生活。暗恋的那个人不会是有病吧，可是她好象没有勇气去抓住她的爱，没有自信，更何况她是在怕被拒绝的吧。

但是我没有反对--暗恋的感觉是很美好的一个时刻，因为没有负担只想喜欢，或没压力，如果被拒绝是不能承受的。但如果真的喜欢的话那就去抓住吧。 可是对喜欢明星是不一样的吧，还可以说我们被他们的外表，完美演出吸引了，要好好的分析。

人怎么爱呢? 如果没有交谈，了解对方的心情，只是自己安静的爱一个人。爱会发现吗？

还有一种暗恋常是对最好的朋友中看见，每天都在一起玩的开开心心，什么事都跟她说，她也知道我的坏脾气，彼此了解， 所以说很很容易喜欢上她是很有可能的。这种暗恋怎的很麻烦？如果两人同情的话，以后分手连做朋友都不知道会做得到吗？或者她只是想做好朋友，跟他告白，以后会很尴尬吧。所以继续暗恋好了吧！！！

说到暗恋是 50% 失恋 没有告白没有恋爱，那个她就不会知道你的感觉，所以没有加受，却没有拒绝，50%的可能或者完全不可能的。爱不是要做主人，你不用在我的身边，只要你生活的快快乐乐，幸福的活着，我就会满意了。

One of the reason you shouldn't miss spider lilies

This is fan made(rOkDiX) MV, cool sound and great editing

Spider Lilies 刺青

"...每个刺青的背后，都有不为人知的秘密..."。Each tattoo has its own secret!!
I love this movie and of course I am a lesbian. But what make this story not just and art that hard to understand and it will be my all time greatest movie for my life. I think that I quite understand the point. However, everything that compose to be this movie make me believe, the 2 lovely stars, Rainie Yang and Isabella Leong, the music, and the dialogue. Hope that I can be written one like this.
Even if I like watching Rainie Yang series but when I saw the poster it's not attract me more than one of Rainie Yang film but it's really change my mind for her one step of acting improvement
It's not just a Les story!!!