Spent searching for a fingerprint, a scent, a breath once might exist in my previous life!!!

How could someone feel someone they have ever met yet but really feel that person really exist somewhere? I feel like I’m seeking for something I’m not quite really sure I have faith with but in the same time I also confident that it’s waiting for me. How could this be possible? And there will be no proof until I finally find it. It make me stop recent relation to make myself free for someone I wait. Is it that simple? I don’t know. Don’t even have a clue. I might feel confuse with myself or getting bore with love but why I feel so strong for the kind of waiting. The feeling that told me to wait, the happy, delight moment comes to me with no reason. Just happy for my life and not feel lonely even if I am alone. It is like I am in love with someone but apparently I have got no one. Is this feeling real? Or I just spent time for movie or obsess for love at first sight or the soul mate or the other part of me that haven’t reunion yet? Maybe that the kind of unconscious mind that make story inside my head. I such an imaginary girl!!! Who seeking the love that only exist in those novels.

Who love South of nowhere hands up!!!

This show make me crazy after watching for 2 weeks or more: story about to gay couple Spencer and Ashley. Spencer(sweet, friendly girl) and family move from Ohio to LA, the rush city with crime, drug and many thing to distract. She met Ashley, smoking hot girl in school lol, rich, daughter of rock singer and gay. Spencer spent lot of time with Ashley talk about everything that make her mother very concern about her more when she know Ashley is gay. In contrast, knowing Ashley made Spencer discover her real sexuality. I like the ep 5 of the first season, before they become more intimate Ashley made an art film talk about people first time having sex, at first Spencer refuse to make it on record but finally she made the sweetest talk. Like her first time is not what she expect as they both virgin and if it’s not fun why everyone are obsess about it and she realize that her first time is almost end when it began and she cried and don’t know why because she sad or regret but she cried. She wish that she can have her new first time to give for someone she do really love and the shot went back to Ashley which saw the video with shyly smile for what Spencer said.


Do you think that this show can influence for straight people to be gay because after 3 season the show was cut off while it seems to be tons of fans crazy about the show like me(I’ve watch it 3 years later after the show cut off). For me the show is the show. What it can influence me is to use some of the good advice or memorable quotes but come on you are what you are and nothing can change (I watch more for straight couple movies and series but it’s doesn’t change the way I am at all). I really hope that the show would be back(even though the story is already completely end(in webisode actually) but I think the plot of Spencer and Ashley life in University would be perfect for the new season of South of Nowhere)Unless the reason of cutting this off are others.

FABULOUS LESBIAN BOOKS AND MOVIE

After got accident, I quite have plenty time to enjoy myself; reading books, listening music, writing, watching (lesbian)movies. I expect there will be more good lesbian movies more that not just picture only sex but in the kind of touchable, appreciable love that have no boundaries. So I come up with the one of the wonderful movies i've watch recently Imagine me&you this story make me believe that love at first sight is exist. Some may vice versa.

For the books I haven't got any lesbian book yet but I'm kind of buy one soon before that take a look with a good review for 10 great classic lesbian books but actually it's really hard to list as there are so many fabulous lesbian books we should read.